The trials and tribulations of an adventurous modern mom
“Hope knows no fear. Hope dares to blossom even inside the abysmal abyss.
Hope secretly feeds and strengthens promise.” – Sri Chinmoy
Slowly the sun began to set beneath the water-ladden clouds into the horizon. Would it be orange, blue, purple or pink? Each and every night is different and unique just like every sunset since the beginning of time. Rays of brilliant gold light shoot through the clouds like rays of a million glistening diamonds. Is it a sign? Is it a message? Is it a symbol of hope that everything will be alright? I don’t know. But like many trying times throughout my life, I have to believe in fate. That this is a sign of hope.
The past several days here with my family has been insanely difficult. It’s been a bittersweet mixture of changing emotions ranging from love, fear, darkness and hope. I’ve known extremely challenging times. Times where people who I love have suffered and I’ve worried. Even I myself have experienced those terrible dark days in my life when I wondered how in the hell I’d ever survive. But I did. I’m here. And I’m much stronger because of it.
I’ve often heard that life is a mind game and a matter of perspective. It is not what you are given but how you react to what you get. Perhaps it is true. Attitude is so central to how we deal with the journey of our lives. Yet sometimes it is just plain old hard. And this is one of those times.
I am hopeful that the waiting game will end soon and we will have some answers. Uncertainty is one of the biggest fears and causes of anxiety that people experience and unfortunately no matter how hard you try to overcome it, it sits in the back of your head driving you mad. Restless nights. Headaches tightening around my head like needles. Stomach aches. Stress. There is no way around it except to keep remembering that ray of light and message of hope. From who? I don’t know. But it was there and right now that is all I’ve got to keep me strong.