The trials and tribulations of an adventurous modern mom
“Confront the dark parts of yourself, and work to banish them with illumination or forgiveness. Your wiliness to wrestle with your demons will cause your angels to sing”. – August Wilson
Sometimes in life you need to just pull back a little and take things day by day. You need to allow yourself the freedom to just be. As a person who often finds it hard to sit still and slow down, allowing myself this freedom is even harder. I am a person who is a doer not someone who likes to be left behind on the porch. I feel more alive when I’m doing the things I love, the things that bring me joy and inspiration.
But now is a time that I need to pull in and allow myself the freedom to just be. To just be still. To just be silent. To feel how I need to feel whether it is sorrow, fear, hope or pain.
I need to allow myself time to heal and get through these difficult dark days of uncertainty. I need to reground myself and believe in the power and strength of my heart and soul to get me through whatever lies ahead.
I need to constantly remember to shut the door on those deep dark worries and concerns. Those nagging “what if’s” that keep me up in the night and that keep me fighting so hard to keep them away.
The human mind is such a powerful thing. If I’ve learned anything through this experience is how much power you have over controlling those thoughts and emotions inside your soul. Those feelings, fears, emotions, worries, concerns that could either make or break you.
I won’t let them break me down. I won’t. I will do whatever it takes to slam the door closed on the darkness and and keep my face to the sun.
I pray I feel this way tomorrow afternoon when once again the uncertainty of the last month will be known. I close my eyes, use the power of my mind to give me strength and courage. Yet for now I am allowing myself the simple freedom to just be.