The Diary of a Happy Mom: 40 and Beyond

The trials and tribulations of an adventurous modern mom


Tomorrow I leave for Arizona. It will be my first time seeing my parents since my last visit at the end of August when my dad first found out he had cancer and had his surgery. Now, it feels like deja vu again to be heading back, alone without the kids yet this time for an even more emotionally daunting visit. Tomorrow my dad starts chemo.

Arizona sunset

Tomorrow begins the next part of the journey. Four to six months of chemotherapy to kill the cancer inside his body. I’m not going to lie. My anxiety and fear is back. The hope is still there and it is stronger than the other two negative emotions yet the last few days have been very challenging. I’m scared.

I was doing ok for the last week or so but now as the reality of the situation is setting in and is not going to just go away like a terrible dream, I’m feeling nervous again. I truly hope that I feel better once I arrive and see my dad. He has been so tremendously positive each and every day. He is still running, hiking and golfing even with his port installed. He is a powerful role model and such an inspiration for me.

Arizona sunset

I have been strong. A lot stronger than I ever thought I could be. I endlessly thank the skies above for having such a wonderful, loving husband, children and family. I can’t imagine ever going through this kind of stress and fear alone.

Tomorrow will be the first time in years that we will be together as an original family: Me, my sister, my brother, my mother and father. No kids. No spouses. Just like old times. It is bound to cheer me up for the power of love, inspiration and family has enormous strength.

Desert flower

5 comments on “Tomorrow

  1. LuAnn
    December 1, 2013

    You are all in my prayers and I do believe your father will do just fine, as has my husband. 🙂

    • thirdeyemom
      December 1, 2013

      Thanks LuAnn. Leaving for home today. It has been a nice stay. So far he is feeling good but next Tuesday will be the second zap and I’m sure it will be harder. Glad I’m only a plane ride away. 🙂

      • LuAnn
        December 1, 2013

        I am guessing the chemo is harder than radiation but with his positive attitude I believe that will carry him through. Hugs to you and your family.

      • thirdeyemom
        December 9, 2013

        Thanks LuAnn. Yes chemo is harder because it kills all the red blood cells and makes you feel sick. so far my dad is doing amazing but it is cumulative so as time goes by it will be harder on him. I’m going out there again Dec. 26th. My parents a year ago booked a family cruise for all of us with the grandkids but couldn’t get out of it and wanted us to go without them. It feels wrong but they really wanted us to go and have fun. So we are going. However, I am flying directly to AZ right afterwards to spend a week with them. 🙂

      • LuAnn
        December 10, 2013

        Wonderful and I am sure your father will be there with you all in spirit. I know for Terry even the radiation was cumulative, tiring him more after his exercise walks. His doctors and technicians all believed that he fared better than most because of his fitness level and that he continued to exercise while doing his treatments. I am so pleased to hear that your father is doing well. You will all continue to be in my prayers.

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